So after weeks of bad news upon bad news, I received great news yesterday. My cancer is not in any other organs including brain and bones! I was ecstatic when my Nurse Practitioner delivered the news. But I had been preparing for bad news in order to cope.
A few minutes after I received the good news, I went into what I will call Frozen Shock Syndrome. I was immobile and had difficulty functioning. Even a taking a shower seemed like an impossible feat. Slowly, as the day went on I was able to truly absorb the news. I talked to a counselor friend. She stated that I was in bad news high emotion mode for so many weeks, it was difficult to comprehend good news.
I would never have believed you could have had a reaction to positive news like I did. It just took some time to filter down into my being so I could really absorb what it meant. But by the time I went to bed, it must have totally absorbed because I slept for 7 hours straight which I haven’t done in two months!